Edgar Cayce readings

Edgar Cayce’s Secret, Part 15Strictly speaking, Jesus belongs to the previous chapter (on history). However, for Cayce this is history of an entirely different order, owing to the intense spiritual meaning with which it is charged. Cayce’s elaborations on the New Testament accounts are no less spiritually suggestive than his incorporation of those accounts. His identification of the Jesus soul’s earlier incarnations ties the Bible together with other Cayce material in a manner illustrative of the workings of karma. His descriptions of the Essenes of Mount Carmel hold that group up as an ideal for others who would clear a path for Christ. His mention of Jesus’s studies in Egypt, Persia, and India suggest the essential compatibility of Eastern and Western religions. Finally, his Christology makes the Christ spirit not only an ideal toward which to aspire, but a living presence which guides all those who “name the name.”
A. Jesus’s past lives

According to Cayce, Jesus and Adam were different incarnations of the same soul, as were Eve and the Virgin Mary (Jesus’s twin soul). Thus was Jesus able to atone for the “sin of Adam”.

Q. When did the knowledge come to Jesus that he was to be the Savior of the world? 

A. When he fell in Eden. [2067-7]

Many other characters from the Old Testament were also incarnations of Jesus, to the extent that the entire Christian Bible becomes part of the story of his long struggle to attain Christhood:Q. Please give the important re-incarnations of Adam in the world’s history. 

A. In the beginning as Amilius, as Adam, as Melchizedek, as Zend, as Ur. as Asaph, as Jesus–Joseph–Jesus. Then, as that coming into the world in the second coming …. [364-7]

The stories of the primordial redeemer figure Amilius and the biblical Adam are difficult to disentangle from one another. Essentially, “Amilius” (also spelled “Amelius”) is the name by which Cayce refers to the Jesusentitty before his adoption of a physical body (corresponding to Genesis 1), whereas “Adam” refers to the same entity after he took on a material form (corresponding to Genesis 2). The first wave of souls (known as “the sons of men”) became entrapped in the earth plane accidentally, through their misuse of free will. These events gave rise to legends of the fall of the angels. The second wave (“the sons of God”) consisted of those souls led by Amilius-the Jesus-entity–who voluntarily became entrapped in order to assist the first wave. This they accomplished by steering the process of physical evolution in order to create more appropriate physical forms for these souls. Cayce places Amilius on Atlantis, but says that he did not physically incarnate until the human physical form had been created, at which time the Genesis accounts of Adam and Eve begin. The location of the Garden of Eden is variously given as the “Caucasian and Carpathian” (364-13), or “between the Euphrates, or…the Red Sea. the Dead Sea” (1179-2)-in any case, not Atlantis. Confusingly, Cayce sometimes uses the word “Adam” to refer to the entire group of souls which had accompanied the Jesus-entity incarnation into the earth plane, who incarnated as the five races on five separate continents (e.g. 900-227). Eventually, the Jesus-entity, as Adam, joined his twin soul in allowing himself to be seduced by materiality himself, as symbolized by his acceptance of theforbidden fruit. The other sons of God followed suit, and as a result were moved to express their materiality by interbreeding with the “daughters of men” (cf. Genesis 6:2). In this light, humanity’s banishment from the Garden of Eden was actually a great blessing, since death, reincarnation, and karma are all designed to draw our attention away from materiality and toward our true nature. In case the reader wonders where Cayce came up with the name “Amilius,” or why a disembodied entity in Atlantis should have been given a Latinate name, it bears mentioning that history knows of one Amelius who was a minor neo-Platonist philosopher of the third century A.D. This Amelius was a pupil of Plotinus, a teacher of Porphyry, and the author of a longlost forty-volume work against one Zostrianos the Gnostic. Ironically, in view of the Caycean Amelius’s connection with Atlantis, his namesake interpreted Plato’s Atlantis myth as astronomical symbolism rather than straight history.(310)

As with Adam and Eve, Cayce interprets the biblical references to Enoch (364-8) and Melchizedek literally, as reliable accounts of historical figures. Interestingly, these two incarnations are also attributed to Jesus by “Visel, the Goddess of Wisdom. or the Holy Breath” as she commands Dowling to write the Aquarian Gospel:

Write full the story of The Christ who built upon the Solid Rock of yonder circle of the sun-the Christ who men have known as Enoch the Initiate…. And you may write the story of Melchizedec, the Christ who lived when Abraham lived…. (311)Melchizedek (the “king of Salem” and “priest of the most high God” who shares bread and wine with Abraham in Genesis 14: 18-20) is mentioned both in the Dead Sea Scrolls (I I Q Melch) and the Nag Hammadi codices (NEC IX 1), where he appears as a cosmic angelic figure. possibly similar to the risen Christ. Hebrews 5:10 calls Jesus “a high priest after the order of Melchizedek,” perhaps in an attempt to explain how Jesus could be a priestly messiah without being a Levite. According to Cayce, Melchizedek wrote the Book of Job, which contains many mysterious passages that Cayce liked. “For, as the sons of God came together to reason, as recorded by Job, “WHO recorded same? The Son of Man! Melchizedek wrote Job!” (262-55).

Enoch, too, has a distinguished literary history encompassing several pseudepigraphal works as well as some Kabbalistic writings, in addition to his brief mention in Genesis 5:18-24 (which concludes, “And Enoch walked with God: and he was not, for God took him”). These describe the fall of the angels into materiality, take the title character on several heavenly voyages, reveal to him the future up to the time of the messiah, and teach him about such traditional topics as angelology and the divine throne-chariot. Ethiopic Enoch introduces Enoch to a messianic figure referred to as “the Son of Man,” and the proto-Kabbalistic (Hebrew)Apocalypse of Enoch shows him transfigured into the angel Metatron. In the canonical New Testament, Enoch is mentioned in Hebrews 11:5 and Jude 14-15, with the latter passage apparently quoting from the pseudepigaphal Enochian literature (thereby lending it a certain legitimacy in the eyes of someone like Cayce who is committed to the reliability of the Christian Bible).

” Hermes” of the Cayce readings probably belongs in the same company as Melchizedek and Enoch, although he is not a biblical figure and in any case Cayce never specifically names him as a previous incarnation of Jesus. (312) The readings have him design and build the Great Pyramid (5748-5) under the direction of Ra Ta. Apart from the Cayce readings. a connection between a Hermes and Egypt is also found in the Hellenistic writings attributed to Hermes Trismegistus, which are of Egyptian provenance. In the first book, Hermes is referred to asPoimandres,”shepherd of men.” In another curious Christian parallel, he says “the Word which came forth from the Light is the Son of God” (1,6). Here, Hermes teaches that human nature consists of such divine elements as Nature, Light, Mind, and Life: and that by recognizing them we may return to the invisible, immaterial world of Truth. During the Renaissance the newly-translated philosophy of the Hellenistic Hermetic literature mixed freely with astrology, alchemy, Kabbalah. and magic, so that “Hermeticism” eventually came to mean a kind of occult tore. In Freemasonry and Theosophy, this was combined with a revival of interest in ancient Egypt. For example, the 1607 Inago Jones document traces Masonic tore to the children of the antediluvian patriarch Lamech by way of Hermes Trismegistus, who recorded the fraternity’s wisdom on obilisks and pyramids for posterity.

“Ur” is elsewhere said to be “rather a land, a place, a city” that somehow guided or influenced Jesus, rather than an actual person (564-9). Outside of the Cayce readings, of course, “Ur of the Chaldees” is remembered primarily as the native city of Abraham (Genesis 11:31).

Perhaps the syllable sounded more mysterious as the result of its German meaning (“primordial”).

Cayce identifies “Zend” (also spelled “Zen”, “Zan”,”Sen”. or “San”) as the father of Zoroaster (991-1), and as a source of inspiration for the Zend-Avesta (288-29). Actually. the word Zendin Zend-Avesta means “commentary, “(313) and in any case the work by that name is a relatively late Middle Persian commentary on the Avesta. Also, in reality Zoroaster’s father was Pourushaspa, of the clan Spitaman. (314) It would appear that despite the sleeping Cayce’s fascination with ancient Iran, he did not actually know very much about that country, but based his readings on a fantasized version of it inspired by the Book of Esther and Matthew’s story of the Magi. Interestingly, Steiner in his gospel commentaries makes one of the Jesus children (the “Solomon Jesus” from Matthew) an incarnation of Zarathustra. Anyway, according to the readings, Zend was the son of Uhjltd (a previous incarnation of Cayce) and Ilya (Gladys Davis), who was a niece of Croesus. Together they had defied their Icing in order to found a Silk Route oasis called Toaz or Is-Shlan-doen (which he translates as “the City in the Hills and the Plains”),(315) just southwest of the present-day Shushtar in western Iran. Besides Zend, Uhjldt and Ilya also had a daughter named Uldha and a son named Ujndt.

Turning to the remaining biblical characters, the story of Joseph would have appealed to Cayce for its Egyptian location, its endorsement of dream guidance, and also for Joseph’s escape from the pit (anticipating Jesus’s resurrection). The appeal of Joshua (who is not listed in the passage above, cf. 5749-14) is more difficult to account for given his notorious genocidal tendencies. (316) Cayce saw Joshua as a member of a family which had produced many adept spiritual counselors (1737); and also as a scribe for Moses, who psychically dictated much of the material from the books traditionally attributed to him (e.g. 5023-2). thus explaining how he could have managed to include such details as the creation of the universe and his own death. The readings give little information about Asaph, the music director and seer who served under David and Solomon. Jeshua (an incarnation of Jesus not listed above), the high priest who helped organize the return from exile and the rebuilding of the temple (as recounted in the books of Ezra and Nehemiah) (317) is claimed by Cayce to have compiled and translated the books of the Bible (5023-2). If these characters (as Cayce describes them) have anything in common, it is their role as psychic revelators.

Note that “Joshua”, “Jeshua”, and “Jesus” are really the same name. That is, the name “Jesus” is a Latinization of the Aramaic Jeshua or Yeshua, which is in turn taken from the HebrewYehoshua, or Joshua. (Jesus was thus named after the Old Testament hero.) So Cayce has assigned the soul-entity Jesus the same name for three separate incarnations! Eddy had noted the connection between the names “Jesus” and “Joshua” in Science and Health; (318) Cayce elsewhere reports that Jesus was registered by his Essene school under the name of “Jeshua” (2067-7).

As for the Second Coming, Cayce sometimes interprets this as an internal. psychic event within the individual seeker (as in his commentary on the Book of Revelation), and sometimes as the actual return of Jesus Christ in particular. In discussing the massive geological changes predicted for this century, he adds that “these will begin in those periods from ’58 to ’98. when these will be proclaimed as the periods when His light will be seen in the clouds” (3976-15). While this passage might be interpreted psychologically, elsewhere Cayce insists that Jesus will return in the flesh (5749-4). As it happens, early twentieth-century Kentucky was the scene of great premillennialist excitement (although the Disciples of Christ were largely postmillennialists), and several of the Cayce readings imply a premillennialist perspective. For example:

As given, for a thousand years he will walk and talk with men of every clime. Then in groups, in masses, and then they shall reign of the first resurrection for a thousand years; for this will be when the changes materially come. [364-8]Although Cayce gives the year date of the “entrance of the Messiah into this period–1998” (5748-5), he also admits that no one knows the exact time of the Second Coming, since it cannot occur “until His enemies–and the earth-are wholly in subjection to His will, His powers” (57491). Strictly speaking, this will not be a future incarnation, since Jesus has already transcended the necessity of reincarnating.
B. Jesus the Essene

The readings claim that Mary, Joseph, and Jesus were affiliated with an Essene community based on Mount Carmel, which was a continuation of a “school of the prophets” begun by Elijah, Elisha, Samuel, and ultimately Melchizedek (254-109). The Essenes are not mentioned in the Bible–Cayce’s generation would have known about them from Josephus, Philo, and Pliny the Elder. While the word “Essene” is never used in the Qumran texts (a.k.a. the Dead Sea Scrolls), most scholars accept that the Qumran sectarians were either identical or closely related to the Essenes of the classical authors. Nevertheless, the Dead Sea Scrolls were not discovered until 1947, so Cayce could not have been influenced by them.(319) According to the Cayce material, the Essenes were an esoterically-inclined religious community consisting of both Jews and Gentiles, men and women. whose purpose was to prepare for the coming of the messiah. The word “Essene,” we are told, means “expectancy” (254-109). (Scholars have advanced several theories as to the origins of the Essenes’ name, though never this one.) Following Josephus’ observation that the Essenes were known for fortune-telling, Cayce has them spending their time recording experiences of “the supernatural or out of the ordinary experiences; whether in dreams, visions. voices, or what not” (1472-1). The Essenes were “students of what ye would call astrology, numerology, phrenology, and those phases of the study of the return of individuals, or incarnation….” (5749-8).

Apart from the glaringly anachronistic reference to phrenology, how accurate is Cayce’s description of the Essenes in light of the Qumran material? The scrolls give the impression of an authoritarian, highly regimented community intent on controlling every aspect of its members’ lives. The Manual of Discipline specifies that members were to turn over all money and property to the community after a year’s probation, and lists a bewildering variety of offenses which merit lengthy punishment or expulsion. The Qumran sectarians were located at about a four-hour walk from the nearest town (Jericho), probably out of a desire to “be separated from all the men of error who walk in the ways of wickedness. (320) The sect’s theology stressed the dichotomy of good and evil–in members’ personal lives. in the half-mythical conflict between the “Teacher of Righteousness” and the “Wicked Priest,” in the separation of the Qumran sect from the outside world, and in an anticipated final war between the sons of light and the army of Belial (from the War Scroll). It may be that the members of the Qumran community were not typical of Essenes elsewhere, and that more liberal Essene groups (it would certainly be hard to imagine more conservative ones) congregated in the towns and cities. As for the Jesus connection, James Charlesworth has edited a good introductory volume on the problem of Jesus’ relationship to the Qumran sect. (321) In brief, the scholarly consensus seems to be that whe there are many intriguing points of similarity between Jesus and the Qumran community. the differences are just as profound. For example, the Qumran sectarians would certainly not have approved of Jesus’ relatively relaxed moral standards (e.g. enjoying the company of prostitutes and tax collectors), although similar groups elsewhere may have been more understanding. Also. an equally impressive roster of similarities could be mustered on behalf of competing interpretations making Jesus into a proto-Pharisee, Zealot, Cynic sage, folk magician, or a lapsed follower of John the Baptist.

The idea that Jesus was an Essene dates back to the German enlightenment. and came from rationalists who sought to deny the authority of traditional Christian doctrine. As early as 1717, one Humphrey Prideaux mentions the idea in connection with the Deists. In 1800, there appeared a four-volume Jesus novel by Karl Heinrich Venturini which speculated that Joseph of Aramathea, Nicodemus, and Jesus were Essenes. Jesus’s disciples, however, were not fully initiated and therefore misunderstand his message. Venturini’s fictional plot was seriously advanced by Karl Friedrich Bahrdt (1741-1792), a professor of Halle, Prussia who named the Masons as the Essenes’ modern continuation. (322)

A number of occult gospels confirmed that Jesus had been a member of the Essenes, and hence of the Great White Brotherhood. Typical themes include white robes (mentioned by Josephus), mastery of the healing arts (an exaggeration of Philo’s observation that they cared for the sick), and a quasi-Masonic hierarchy (an extrapolation from Josephus’ comment that their order consisted of four classes). For example, there is The Crucifixion of Jesus, by an Eye Witness, of unknown authorship (first published in 1849). This work was supposedly copied in translation from a Latin manuscript in a Greek monastery in Alexandria. Goodspeed traces it back to nineteenth-century German Masonic circles. (323) According to The Crucfixion of Jesus, John the Baptist was an Essene, and Jesus also joined that order. White-robed Essenes were mistaken for angels during the annunciation to Mary; made arrangements for the flight into Egypt (cf. Cayce reading 1010); and later supervised the resurrection, which was actually accomplished through the Essenes’ advanced healing arts. Cayce largely adopts the perspective of the Aquarian Gospel and H. Spencer Lewis with regard to the Essenes. The4quarian Gospel portrays the Essenes as cosmopolitan types with contacts as far afield as Egypt, Greece, Persia, India, Chinaand Tibet. Cayce, like Dowling, identifies the Essenes with the Great White Brotherhood:

Q. Were the Essenes called at various times and places Nazarites, School of the Prophets, Hasidees, Therapeutae, Nazarenes, and were they a branch of the Great White Brotherhood, starting in Egypt and taking as members Gentiles and Jews alike?

A. In general, yes. Specifically, not altogether.

They were known at times as some of these; or the Nazarites were a branch or THOUGHT of same, see? Just as in the present one would say that any denomination by name is a branch of the Christian- Protestant faith, see? … The movement was NOT an Egyptian one, though ADOPTED by those in another period–or an earlier period–and made a part of the whole movement. They took Jews and Gentiles alike as members-yes. [254-109]

The question appears to have been inspired by Lewis’s account, which discusses nearly all of the groups named. There the Essenes are described as a Palestinian branch of the Great White Brotherhood in Egypt. One branch was located at Ein Gedi, the other (like Cayce’s Essenes) at Mount Carmel. Their purpose was to prepare for the coming of the messiah. (324) Meanwhile, like Cayce, the Aquarian Gospel asserts that “Joseph was an upright man, and a devoted Essenes” (1: 12). and that Jesus received his education and mission from this order. Lewis makes the same claims. Again like Cayce (but unlike Notovitch and the Enlightenment rationalists), Dowling affirms all of the traditional miracles and then some-Mary was ‘indeed a virgin; Jesus really did rise from the dead. Lewis meanwhile seems to affirm the Virgin Birth (which. like Cayce, he interprets in New Thought terms) and the miracles of Jesus, but subscribes to the “swoon” theory in which Jesus did not really die on the cross.

Cayce says that, due to her great virtue, Mary was chosen by the Essenes for intensive spiritual training in preparation for the conception of the messiah. Mary’s election as mother of the messiah occurs during a special ceremony in the temple at Mount Carmel, in which an angel leads her by the hand to the altar:

Q. How long was the preparation in progress before Mary was chosen? 

A. Three years. 

Q. In what manner was she chosen? 

A. As they walked up the steps! [5749-7]

Q. How old was Mary at the time she was chosen? 

A. Four, and as ye would call, between twelve and thirteen when designated as the one chosen by the angel on the stair. [5749-8]

In the apocryphal Infancy Gospel of James, or Protevangelion Jacob, Mary is presented to the Lord at the age of three when her father Joachim “set her on the third step of the altar, and the Lord God gave grace to her … and she received food from the hand of an angel.”(325) Cayce (254-109) and the Protevangelion agree that Joseph was chosen as her husband by lot. They also agree that Joseph was much older than Mary. Cayce (5749-7) gives their ages at the time of their marriage as thirty-six and sixteen, respectively. Meanwhile, the Prorevangelionstates that Joseph was a widower, and although different versions disagree as to Mary’s age. the most common figure is sixteen.(326) Finally. Cayce (587. 1152), the Protevangelion. and the Aquarian Gospel (3:3) agree that Jesus was born in a cave. Lewis affirms all of these details as well, probably under the influence of Dowling.
C. Jesus’s world tour

According to Cayce, at age sixteen the young Jesus returned abroad (“returned” because of Matthew’s account of the flight into Egypt) to begin his education-first a brief trip back to Egypt, then three years in India, and finally a year in Persia. The idea of Jesus traveling to these exotic places has obvious appeal to those steeped in Theosophical lore, who interpret his teachings along the lines of doctrines taken from Eastern religions.

Here, after the period again of presentation at the temple, when there were those questionings among the groups of the leaders, the entity then was sent first-again–into Egypt for only a short period, and then into India. and then into what is now Persia.

Hence in all the ways of the teachers the entity was trained.

From Persia he was called to Judea at the death of Joseph, and then into Egypt for the completion of his preparation as a teacher.

He was with John, the Messenger, during the portion of the training there in Egypt.

Then to Capernaum, Cana, and those periods of the first preparation in the land of the nativity.

The rest you have according to Mark, John, Matthew and Luke; these in their order record most of the material experiences of the Master. [5749-7]The notion that Jesus had spent his “lost years” wandering Asia by no means originated with Cayce. Its first proponent seems to have been the Russian war correspondent Nicholas Notovitch (1858-c. 1916), who describes his travels in British India in a work entitled La Vie inconnue de Jesus-Christ (The Unknown Life of Jesus Christ),published in 1894. According to that work, in 1887 Notovitch was supposedly told by the unnamed “chief lama” of Hemis monastery (located about 40 kilometers south of Leh, Ladakh) that their library contained records of a visit to Ladakh by Jesus in ancient times. Shortly after his departure, Notovitch fractured his knee in an equestrian accident, which he regarded as the perfect excuse to return to Hemis for an extended stay. There, the chief lama finally relented to his earnest requests to examine the manuscripts in question. These were two large bound volumes in Tibetan, which Notovitch duly copied down–in translation. through his interpreter–as The Life of Saint Issa: Best of the Sons of Men.

Purportedly the account of traders returning to Ladakh from Israel in the first century A.D. the text begins by summarizing the exodus of the Jews from Egypt, Israel’s lapse into sin during the prophetic period, and the subsequent Roman occupation. But God has mercy on one poor couple (Mary and Joseph), whom he rewards by giving them a son, Issa (which is the Qu’anic name for Jesus). All is well until the boy turns thirteen and the parents arrange a marriage for him. Issa

… left the parental house in secret, departed from Jerusalem, and with the merchants set

out towards Sind, with the object of perfecting himself in the divine word and of studying

the laws of the great Buddhas. [IV. 12- 13] (327)At fourteen, he traveled across northern Sind, the Punjab, and Rajputana, where he encountered the “erring worshippers of Jaine” (V. 2-3 ). Then he spent six years in Juggernaut, in Orissa, where he studied the Vedas and learned the art of exorcism and intercessory prayer. True to form, during his stay there Issa rebuked Brahmin priests for upholding the caste system;
violated custom by giving teachings to the lower castes (V. 6-11); rejected the authority of the Vedas and Puranas (V. 12); denied the Trimurti and the incarnation of Para-Brahma as Vishnu, Shiva, and other gods (V, 14); belittled idolatry (V, 20-21); and barely escaped with his life. In Nepal, he grew proficient in Pali and spent six years studying Buddhist sutras. After that he returned to Rajputana and made his way westward, pausing along the way to condemn human and animal immolation (VII. 14), sun-worship (VIII, 9), the dualism of good and evil (VIII. 15), and the Zoroastrian priesthoood (VIII, 20-22). The Zoroastrian priests responded by seizing him by night and abandoning him to the wilderness, hoping in vain that he would be devoured by wild beasts.

Issa made his way back to Palestine at the age of twenty-nine, the point at which the gospel narratives resume. No miracles are reported–earlier (VII, 5). Issa had rebuked those who demanded miracles for failing to recognize that nature is full of such. The only really new element is his lengthy, spirited discourse on the dignity of woman, which begins: “Respect woman, for she is the mother of the universe, and the truth of all divine creation lies in her” (XII, 10). Issa appears critical of the temple priesthood, but respectful of the Roman authorities. Curiously, Pilate is presented as the villain, whereas the Jewish priests and elders attempt to protect Issa. It is the priests and elders, not Pilate, who wash their hands in order to demonstrate their nonresponsibility for his execution. (Notovitch was the son of a rabbi.) In this version, Issa does not rise from the dead. Rather, Pilate moves his body in order to forstall an insurrection; hence the empty tomb.

Shortly after the book’s publication, several articles critical of Notovitch appeared in a journal called The Nineteenth Century. The first (published in October 1894) was authored by none other than Friedrich Max Müller who, however, did not actually visit Hemis to investigate. The second (April 1896) was a report by one J. Archibald Douglass. a teacher in Agra who did make the trip to Ladakh. According to Douglass, the abbot of Hemis revealed in an interview that no one answering to Notovitch’s description had been there (although evidence in favor of Notovitch later surfaced); that he knew nothing of the many esoteric subjects which his counterpart in Notovitch’s book had expounded upon (and it must be admitted that Notovitch does have his chief lama say many things which seem quite out of character); and that in all his years as a monk, the abbot had never heard of any Tibetan work mentioning Jesus. When asked to comment on Notovitch’s story, the abbot responded with the statement, “Sun, sun, sun, manna mi dug,” which is allegedly Tibetan for “Lies, lies, lies. nothing but lies!” (In fact it is certainly not Tibetan and, as Kersten points out, it does not appear to represent any recognizable Asian language, although it is conceivable that Douglass simply wrote it down the way he thought he heard it.) A number of other travelers were later to claim first-hand knowledge of the Issa manuscripts, but their testimony has not been sufficient to dispel skepticism. In case anyone is still inclined to believe the Issa manuscript, I would point out that the supposed history of the text does not seem very well thought through (why would first-century traders from Israel include the bulk of the Old Testament as a part of their account of Issa’s life?), and that its author makes a number of historical and cultural errors (the Jain religion is not named after a god called “Jaine”; Pali is not the language of Nepal) consistent with the suggestion that he is a nineteenth-century European.

The tale of Jesus’s journey across Asia grew with successive retellings. For example, theOahspe Gospel sends him on a camel-caravan to the Caucasus region, but stops far short of India (Jesus travels to Britain instead). Cayce’s account is much closer to that given in AquarianGospel, which is much more heavily dependent upon Notovitch. According to Dowling, Jesus’ travels begin when Hillel, after their meeting in the temple, is so impressed that he recommends him to an Indian prince named Ravanna, who becomes his patron and accompanies him (with his parents’ permission) to Jagannath. Jesus’ intinerary after that is much the same as in Notovitch but with a few added excursions– Benares, “Kapivastu” (probably Kapilivastu), Lhasa (where he spends time in a Tibetan temple learning to read ancient manuscripts from the sage ” Meng-ste, ” whose name sounds like that of Meng-tse, a.k.a. Mencius), Leh, Kashmir, Lahore, Sind, Perseopolis (where he visits the tombs of the Three Wise Men). Ur of Chaldea, Babylon, Nazareth, Athens, Delphi (where he pays his respects to the oracle), and Heliopolis (where he is given a series of initations culminating in a degree called “THE CHRIST”). John the Baptist also gets initiated in Egypt, just as he does in the Cayce readings (5748-5). Lewis’s account(328) reads like an abridged version of Dowling’s.

Disregarding the inherently ridiculous parts of the story, of which there are many, could Jesus really have visited India? Trade did flourish along Jesus’s route as indicated by Cayce, Dowling, and Notovitch. Although few travelers would go the entire distance, Jesus’s nea-rcontamporary Apollonius of Tyana is said to have journeyed to India, where he studied the philosophy of the “gymnosophists.” Even so, the fact that the trip was theoretically possiblefor Jesus does not mean that it actually happened; the crucial question is whether there is any convincing evidence of his journey. Unfortunately, the earliest texts containing the story are from the nineteenth century–far too late to be of any practical value. An alternative approach is to demonstrate Indian influences on early Christianity, using only those historical sources which are generally regarded as admissible. Gruber and Kersten attempt this, and propose quite a number of intriguing textual, philosophical, and iconographic parallels. (329) At the same time, just India and later Palestine both gave rise to texts containing some similar-sounding ideas, does not mean that Jesus carried those ideas from India to Palestine. Other possibilities include proverbs and stories passing from person to person along the trade routes; Indian travelers spreading their traditional lore in the Near East; or the great minds thinking alike.

D. Cayce’s Christology

Like the majority of the Metaphysical writers, Cayce makes a distinction between Jesus and Christ. In brief, Christhood is the goal which all of us should strive after. Jesus was simply the first person to achieve it-our “elder brother,” as it were, and the pattern for our own spiritual growth. The distinction between Jesus and Christ is made by Mary Baker Eddy in Science and Health, (330) although she does not urge us to seek Christhood for ourselves as practically all of the New Thought writers do. Syncretic teachers tended to accept this interpretation of Christhood, perhaps because it resonated well with the concept of Buddhahood and encouraged a mystical, inner-directed perspective. For example, in the following passage fromThe Aquarian Gospel,Jesus is addressing the Silent Brotherhood:

You know that all my life was one great drama for the sons of men; a pattern for the sons of men. I lived to show the possibilities of men.

What I have done all men can do, and what I am all men shall be. [178: 45, 46]In the New Thought movement, Jesus is seen as a great exemplar who shows how we may become aware of universal laws, so as to rise above the restrictions imposed by them and return to consciousness of our oneness with the infinite. divine mind. For example. Troward says that the Bible isa teaching based upon Law, spiritual and mental, fully recognizing that no effect can be produced without the operation of an adequate cause; and Christ is set before us both as explaining the causes and exhibiting the full measure of the effects. (331)Just as Christ fulfilled the Law, so can we-in fact, that is the whole point of Jesus’ teaching. Similarly, Cayce has “this then being the law of God made manifest. (that] He becomes the Law by manifesting same before man; and thus-as man. even as ye-becomes one with the Father” (1158-12). Readings in this vein could easily be multiplied. As a result of Jesus’ triumph over “flesh and temptation”, Cayce’s Jesus became the first of those that overcame death in the body, enabling Him to so illuminate, to so revivify that body as to take it up again, even when those fluids of the body had been drained away by the nail holes in His hands and by the spear piercing His side. [1152- 1]Thus, even physical reality will yield before the spirit-but only when the conditions of the laws relating to these have been met. 

Of those writers who accepted the principle that Jesus was the first person to achieve Christhood, only a few address the problem of just where this leaves other great founders of religions (such as the Buddha, who lived long before the historical Jesus). For example, Spalding:

The Masters accept that Buddha represents the Way to Enlightenment, but they clearly set forth that Christ IS Enlightenment, or a state of consciousness for which we are all seeking–the Christ light of every individual; therefore, the light of every child that is born into the world.(332)Although Cayce’s system is unapologetically Christocentric, non-Christian religions are nevertheless respected-up to a point. For Cayce, the Christ spirit constitutes the impelling force and core of truth behind all religions that teach that “God is One”:Q. What part did Jesus play in any of His reincarnations in the development of the basic teachings of the following religions and philosophies? First, Buddhism.

A. This is just one.

Q. Mohammedanism, Confucianism, Shintoism, Brahmanism, Platonism, Judaism.

A. As has been indicated, the entity–as an entity–influenced either directly or indirectly all those forms of philosophy or religious thought that taught God was One… In all of these, then, there is that same impelling spirit… whether this is directing one of the Confucius’ thought, Brahman thought, Buddha thought, Mohammedan thought, these are as teachers or representatives…. [364-9]

As the passage may suggest, despite Cayce’s lip-service to non-Christian religions, there is no reason to think that he knew very much about them, apart from such snippets as he might have picked up from Theosophy or (in the case of Judaism) the Old Testament. In fact, the readings abound with such howlers as Cayce’s naming of Cato II as the title of a book by Confucius (900-14). Also, Cayce’s suggestion that the Christ spirit ties at the core of all religions is likely to be regarded by non-Christians as tasteless and naive. though surely well-intentioned.

In any case, the readings describe non-Christian religions as “stepping stones” to “knowledge of the Son”:

Q. Is the faith of man in Buddha or Mohammed equal in the effect on his soul to the faith in Jesus Christ?

A. As He gave, he that receiveth a prophet in the NAME of a prophet RECEIVES the prophet’s reward, or that ABILITY that that individual spiritual force M.AY manifest in the life of the individual…. Hence, as we find, each in their respective spheres are but stepping-stones to that which may awaken in the individual the knowledge of the Son in their lives. [262-14]

Since the Christ spirit does not seem to be limited to the religion which bears its name, there is considerable ambiguity as to whether Cayce sees Christianity as an improvement upon other religions. Elsewhere we find him describing Christ “Not as ONLY one [path], but THE only one: For, as He gave, ‘He that climbs up any other way is a thief and a robber'” (364-9). However, this too is ambiguous, since it is unclear whether Cayce means for us to become followers of Christ in the narrow sense of identification with Christianity, or merely in the larger sense of manifesting the Christ spirit (however understood) in our lives. As evidence for the more narrow interpretation, recall that Cayce warned many inquirers not to shirk their heritage as Christians by converting to Eastern religions or occult groups, and remained an outspoken supporter of Christian missionary work overseas. In effect, the readings encourage religious conversions in one direction only.

Even this would be quite a liberal theory by turn-of-the-century Protestant standards, however, since the heathen not only escape damnation but are treated identically with Christians by the laws of karma. The key benefit provided by Christianity would appear to be its dissemination of the teachings of Jesus, which are helpful but not necessary to salvation. We may further surmise that although other religions possess authentic teachings of the Christ spirit, Christianity represents a purer distillation of this message, otherwise Cayce would have regarded all religions equally. In any case, Cayce’s practice of affirming the centrality of Christ alongside the worth of all world religions is anticipated by Freemasonry as well as most New Thought denominations.
310. Pauly’s Realencyclopaedie, entry for “Amelius.”

311. Levi H. Dowling, Aquarian Gospel, p. 15.

312. 281-10 states that the Jesus-entity incarnated as a contemporary of Ra Ta. Since the readings’ Hermes is by far the most interestingy and mysterious figure from this period for whom no twentieth-century Incarnation was ever assigned, many Cayceans have concluded that Hermes was a previous Incarnation of Jesus.

313. Mary Boyce, Zoroastrians: Their Religious Beliefs and Practices, p. 94.

314. Ibid., p. 17.

315. Genesis 19: 29 refers to the destruction of Sodom and “all the cities of the plain.” Perhaps this (or Proust’s appropriation of it) is the inspiration for Cayce’s name for his Persian city.

316. Glenn Sandurfur (Lives of the Master, p. 110 ff) ventures the intriguing observation that the respective careers of Jesus and Joshua followed remarkably similar geographic paths. with memorable stops at Jericho/the Jordan. Hazor/Capernaum. and Aijalon/Emmaus. (However Jesus, unlike Joshua, did not shy away from entering Jerusalem.) Sandurfur’s explanation is that Jesus met his previous karma by performing healings in those very places where Joshua had killed. Such a link may have occurred to Cayce as well, although in cold reality such parallels might be better explained as the result of the gospel writers trying (consciously or otherwise) to fit Jesus into the patterns of previous culture-heroes.

317. In line with his speculations about Jesus’ fulfillment of Joshua’s karma. Glenn Sandurfur (Lives of the Master, p. 129) notes that whereas Jeshua made a point of rejecting Samaritan generosity (towards the rebuilding of the temple). Jesus centered a parable around it.

318. Mary Baker Eddy, Science and Health,p. [t.k.]

319. Cayceans (e.g. Jeffrey Furst in Edgar Cayce’s Story of Jesus, p. 30) often hall the readings’ description of a community of Essenes near the Dead Sea (1391-1) as a successful prophecy. In fact. Cayce’s wording is ambiguous. and in any case the Dead Sea location is given by Pliny. Cayceans also point to the fact that the readings claim (correctly, in light of Qumran) that the Essenes admitted women. whereas the ancients say that they did not. However, Josephus knew of a sect of marrying Essenes.

320. Manual of Discipline, in Willis Barnstone, The Other Bible, p. 214.

321. James Charlesworth, Jesus and the Dead Sea Scrolls.

322. Per Beskow, Strange Tales About Jesus: A Suney of Unfamiliar Gospels, pp. 47-48).

323. Ibid., p. 49: also Edgar Goodspeed, Strange New Gospels, p. 21.

324. H. Spencer Lewis, Mystical Life of Jesus, pp. 25, 27, 41.

325. In Willis Barnstone, The Other Bible, pp. 385-92.

326. Ibid., p. 392 n. 1.

327. In Elizabeth Clare Prophet, The Lost Years of Jesus, pp. 196-97.

328. H. Spencer Lewis, Mystical Life of Jesus, pp. 180-183.

329. Elmar Gruber and Holger Kersten, The Oriqinal Jesus: The Buddhist Sources of Christianity.

330. Mary Baker Eddy, Science and Health,chapter 11, p. 33, statement XII.

331. Thomas Troward, The Edinburgh and Dore Lectures On Mental Science, p. 167.

332. Baird T. Spalding, Life and Teachings of the Masters of the Far East, vol. I. p. 7.


Edgar Cayce predictions

Edgar Cayce’s Earth Change Prophecies

November 5, 2013 at 12:10pm


Edgar Cayce predicted that the Great Lakes would empty into the Gulf of Mexico in the future and that ancient repositories would be discovered when people reached the appropriate level of consciousness. The three repositories mentioned are Egypt, the Bimini area, and the Yucatan.




“The earth will be broken up in the western portion of America. The greater portion of Japan must go into the sea. The upper portion of Europe will be changed as in the twinkling of an eye. Land will appear off the east coast of America. When there is the first breaking up of some conditions in the South Sea and those as apparent in the sinking or rising of that that’s almost opposite same, or in the Mediterranean, and the Etna area, then we many know it has begun.”


“If there are greater activities in Vesuvius or Pelee, then the southern coast of California and the areas between Salt Lake and the southern portions of Nevada, we may expect, within the three months following same, inundation by the earthquakes. But these are to be more in the Southern than the Northern Hemisphere.”

“There will be the upheavals in the Arctic and in the Antarctic that will make for the eruption of volcanoes in the torrid areas, and there will be the shifting then of the poles — so that where there has been those of a frigid or the semi-tropical will become the more tropical, and moss and fern will grow.


“As to conditions in the geography of the world, of the country — changes here are gradually coming about. No wonder, then, that the entity feels the need, the necessity for change of central location. For, many portions of the east coast will be disturbed, as well as many portions of the west coast, as well as the central portion of the U.S. In the next few years land will appear in the Atlantic as well as in the Pacific. And what is the coast line now of many a land will be the bed of the ocean. Even many battle fields of the present will be ocean, will be the seas, the bays, the lands over which The New World Order will carry on their trade as one with another.


“Portions of the now east coast of New York, or New York City itself, will in the main disappear. This will be another generation, though, here; while the southern portions of Carolina, Georgia — these will disappear. This will be much sooner. The waters of the lakes will empty into the Gulf, rather than the waterway over which such discussions have been recently made. It would be well if the waterway were prepared, but not for that purpose for which it is at present being considered. Then the area where the entity is now located (Virginia Beach) will be among the safety lands, as will be portions of what is now Ohio, Indiana and Illinois, and much of the southern portion of Canada and the eastern portion of Canada; while the western land — much of that is to be disturbed as, of course much in other lands.”


“Strifes will arise through the period. Watch for them near the Davis Strait in the attempts there for the keeping of the life line to land open. Watch for them in Libya and in Egypt, in Ankara and in Syria, through the straits about those areas above Australia, in the Indian Ocean and the Persian Gulf.”


It is also understood, comprehended by some that a new order of conditions is to arise; there must be a purging in high places as well as low; and that there must be the greater consideration of the individual, so that each soul being his brother’s keeper. Then certain circumstances will come about in the political, the economic, and whole relationships to which a leveling will occur or a greater comprehension of the need for it.



“… for changes are coming, this may be sure — an evolution or revolution in the ideas of religious thought. The basis of it for the world will eventually come out of Russia. Not communism, no! But rather that which is the basis of the same as the Christ taught — his kind of communism.”


Kids who grow up in same sex homes

Those who make history don’t always do so by choice.

Over the last quarter century, many same-sex couples in Canada chose to, as they fought for equal rights to marry and raise families. In turn, their sons and daughters also broke new ground as the first wave of children born to gay and lesbian couples.

Many of those kids are now in their 20s, and behind them, their ranks are growing, especially in urban centres like Toronto. They’re still a small minority, but today’s toddlers and preschoolers being raised by two moms or two dads are much more likely to see families like theirs in playgrounds and classrooms.

“Something warms my heart about them all running around,” says Sadie Epstein-Fine, 21, who grew up in Toronto with two moms and a large supportive network of family and close friends. “There really is safety in numbers.”

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  • Zak Higgins, 21, was a child when his parents fought for equal rights for same-sex couples. He says his moms, Chris Higgins, left, and Chris Phibbs, centre, are "inspirational people."zoom
  • Sadie Epstein-Fine, top, is among the first big wave of young adults raised by same-sex parents. She grew up in Toronto with moms Rachel Epstein, left, Lois Fine, right, and a large network of family and friends.zoom
  • Robbie Barnett-Kemper and his sister Hannah could usually count on lively discussions around the dinner table with mothers Joyce Barnett, left, and Alison Kemper, right.zoom

At the same time, she says, it’s important for people to recognize that kids like her have their own distinct identities, “because so often we’re attached to (the identities of) our parents.”

According to the 2011 Census , there were 64,575 same-sex married and common-law couples in Canada that year, up 42 per cent from 2006 and double the number in 2001 when Statistics Canada started tracking them. Those couples had 6,410 children living at home. Same-sex families with kids led by women outnumbered male couples by more than four to one.

In Toronto, prenatal and parenting classes and other events offered through the LGBTQ Parenting Network are thriving. Camp Ten Oaks runs a one-week overnight camp every summer for children from alternative families, and a similar program called Project Acorn for youth 16 to 24 .

Research has consistently shown that children raised by lesbian and gay couples fare just as well as kids with heterosexual parents. Groups like theAmerican Academy of Pediatrics and the American Psychological Associationsupport same-sex families along with adoption and reproductive rights.

For a long time, it’s been primarily parents in the public eye, with or without the kids at their side. Now those grown children are able to speak for themselves.

Zach Wahls of Iowa was among the first to gain public attention. Two years ago at age 19, he made a presentation to Iowa state legislators in support of same-sex marriage that instantly went viral. It garnered him a spot on national talk shows and led to his 2012 book My Two Moms .

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His remarks concluded “the sexual orientation of my parents has had zero impact on the content of my character.”

Everyone’s experience is unique.

Robbie Barnett-Kemper

“Traditional” might not be the first word that comes to mind when describing a family headed by two moms. But Robbie Barnett-Kemper says his childhood was shaped by plenty of traditions.

For starters, there was the family meal most nights, a ritual that by most accounts is falling by the wayside in many modern households.

“One of the greatest gifts my parents gave me was the conversation at the dinner table,” says Robbie, 21, who lives in east-end Toronto.

Kids being kids, you can be sure there was also the occasional whine about having to be dragged off the computer, or what was on the menu. But Robbie and his older sister Hannah could count on lively discussion with their moms — Alison Kemper, who now teaches entrepreneurship at Ryerson University, and Joyce Barnett, a psychotherapist. Dinner topics included politics, Biblical interpretation, what happened at school and which day the cleaning lady was coming.

The family attended a downtown Anglican church. Barnett is also a priest and Kemper is a deacon. Robbie went to high school at Royal St. George’s College, a private boys’ school, headed to camp each summer and visited his grandparents’ Muskoka cottage. He also inherited his late grandfather’s love of bow ties.

“We’re the standard lesbian-led family,” says Robbie, who’s going into his fourth year of a five-year program combining education and computer science at Queen’s University and working as a web designer in Toronto this summer.

His moms were always after him to clean up his room. But those dinner table conversations taught him to express his opinion from an early age — especially on matters of injustice or intolerance.


His mothers were among the first lesbian couples married after Ontario gave same-sex marriage the go-ahead in 2003. The following year, when it was being challenged in the Supreme Court of Canada, 12-year-old Robbie wrote an affidavit that was read aloud as the panel considered whether to uphold his parents’ right to marry.

“Now other kids can’t say that I don’t have a real family,” he wrote. Not long after, Robbie sat at the front of his classroom and fielded questions about it from the other kids.


A 2011 survey of high school students by Egale Canada found that most heard anti-gay comments on a daily basis and that many kids with queer parents felt unsafe. Robbie doesn’t recall being teased or ostracized. He always knew his situation was unusual but there were other kids with non-traditional and blended families. He does remember that hearing casual derogatory cracks like “that’s so gay” would provoke him to talk back and bring up the fact that he was being raised by two moms.

There isn’t one question he hasn’t been asked, he says, as if to issue a challenge. People may tiptoe around it, but they’re usually curious about how exactly his family came to be. The short answer is: two women in love and one sperm donor.

Barnett, also known as “Mummy,” gave birth to Hannah in 1986. Six years later Kemper (Mama) delivered Robbie. He knows his biological father. He gave Robbie his first guitar. They have lunch every couple of years.

“There was nothing hard about having two moms,” says Robbie. He did have to learn to shave from another kid at camp. But he had male mentors in his life, including his godfather (who taught him to burp).

Nonetheless, having mothers who are great communicators didn’t make the sex talk any easier. “It was awful for me as it is for every other kid. Because let’s face it, they’re still your parents.”

He’s straight, but didn’t feel pressures or expectations when it came to his sexuality and saw it as a fluid thing.

“Just being able to be myself was the best thing.”

Robbie describes his parents as a source of inspiration. “Being in a house with two mothers who are involved in their occupations and so passionate, it really sets you up as a child.”

They taught him to stand up for what he believes, and told him they loved him every day. How can any parent do better than that, he says. It’s what he’ll remember when he’s a dad.

Sadie Epstein-Fine

Sadie Epstein-Fine loved the term “queer spawn” from the moment she first heard it years ago.

She knows others may balk at the phrase, but “I thought, yeah, that’s exactly what I am,” she says, her face lighting up at the memory.

The 21-year-old theatre student at York University believes in the power of shared experience. And like her mothers, LGBTQ Parenting Network co-ordinator Rachel Epstein and playwright Lois Fine, she is active in the community. Sadie is a counsellor for teens at Camp Ten Oaks each summer and. She regularly speaks about being the child of same-sex parents at workshops for couples planning families or already raising children. She’s volunteered for political canvassing and spoken in high schools about homophobia.

To Sadie, the term “queer spawn,” coined a decade ago, playfully captures the unique situation for kids like her who grow up “living in two worlds” — the gay community that surrounds their parents and the other one inhabited by most of their peers. And it’s an identity that needs to be acknowledged, she says.

Rachel Epstein gave birth to Sadie in 1992 at home surrounded by a dozen women, including her partner Fine. She became pregnant through a fertility clinic following insemination from an anonymous sperm donor.

“I grew up with a sense that family isn’t just nuclear,” says Sadie, who was constantly in the company of her mothers’ closest friends and their children. She has an older brother from Fine’s previous relationship. He is married with a child of his own.

Epstein and Fine split up when Sadie was 10. Fine moved across the street in their Wychwood neighbourhood of Toronto and Sadie went back and forth between houses. She now lives with Epstein and their cat Wolverine.

As part of the widely-watched first wave of offspring of gay parents, Sadie says she felt a subtle pressure to “turn out okay.” It didn’t come from her mothers. But she feared that talking about the tough times that are inevitable in every family might somehow reflect on them.

She knows rebellion is part of adolescence, and so are struggle, distress and being driven crazy by your parents, but as a teen she was reluctant to share it.

Instead she felt it important to always talk about her family “in a way that let’s people know I’m all right.”

It’s something her mother Rachel Epstein acknowledges in a collection of essays on queer parenting she edited in 2009 called Who’s Your Daddy? In her introduction, she notes the pressure kids too often feel to present themselves as “poster families” or act as “the ambassadors” for same-sex parents.

At 16, Sadie came out herself. “I always knew it was an option. I always knew I wouldn’t get kicked out or be a shame to my family. I knew you could be happy and be gay.”

Still, it wasn’t easy and she didn’t tell anyone for a year.

“I don’t think my parents turned me gay,” she says. “I think my parents gave me options and led me to who I am.”

During talks with same-sex parenting groups, couples often ask Sadie for her biggest piece of advice.

She tells them to remember it’s normal for kids to make mistakes and get into trouble; that’s how they learn. Too many are so intent on raising perfect children that they forget family life is a roller-coaster, whether the parents are gay or straight. Don’t worry so much, she says.

Zak Higgins

It’s been a while since Zak Higgins was in the spotlight.

As the son of a lesbian couple at the forefront of the fight for parental rights, he was no stranger to cameras and interviews in his early years. Now 21, Zak remembers being a preschooler and building a Lego tower over and over as a television crew filmed him.

These days, his mind is on the things that preoccupy most recent university graduates — a career, travel plans and what direction his life is about to take. This spring, Zak finished his Bachelor of Arts at Wilfrid Laurier University. He’s now working as a bartender at Harbourfront, learning the ropes in the restaurant and bar business.

Zak has told the story of his family “a million times.” But sure, he’ll tell it again, he says agreeably at a coffee shop near the Leslieville home he shares with his mothers, who have been together for 25 years.

On Dec. 17, 1991, Chris Higgins gave birth to him in a downtown Toronto hospital with Chris Phibbs at her side. Zak had been conceived through insemination using a sperm donor.

The women shared everything, from the euphoria of new parenthood to diaper duty, sleepless nights and walks pushing the stroller. But it was three years before Chris Phibbs was officially recognized as Zak’s second parent, after the couple and three others won their court case granting partners of parents in same-sex couples the right to adopt the children they are jointly raising.

Every now and then in school, his class would be watching a film about equal rights or diversity and Zak would end up staring at a clip of himself with his moms or his 4-year-old self at the head of the Pride Parade holding a giant water gun and spraying the crowd.

“I’d always think here we go again,” he shrugs. “I’d keep popping back up every few years.”

In early childhood, he had a circle of playmates also being raised by same-sex partners. But his moms prepared him for the fact that they were a minority.

“I think from a young age my parents were smart about ‘here’s how our family is, and here’s how your friends’ families might look.’ ”

He remembers being aware that he was the only kid at school with two mothers, but he doesn’t recall it being a big deal. However, before he brought a new friend home, he’d usually preface it with “just to let you know, I have two moms.”

Later, he was like any other prickly adolescent who finds their parents annoying.

“As a teen, you’re always angst-ing about stuff and pissed off at your parents. It took me awhile to see how incredible (it is) what they’ve done. But now I see they are really, really inspirational people.”

His moms — “the Chrises,” he calls them — are frank and open. They told him he always had the option of contacting his biological father. He wasn’t interested until he turned 18.

The two met for the first time in a therapist’s office. It went well. Zak ended up going over for dinner that night. Now, he drops over to help him and his male partner around the garden.

“I wasn’t looking for two more parents,” says Zak. Just an adult guy to hang out with every now and then.

Zak, who’s straight and single at the moment, says he’s been more influenced by his mothers’ loving long-term relationship than by their gender. He’s proud of their courage and determination, but he doesn’t feel compelled to take a public stand.

‘I fully support (equality and rights) but don’t know if it’s my fight,” he says. “It’s their fight.”

Not long ago, the Chrises popped in to visit him at work. His boss came out to meet them and offered feedback any mom would be tickled to hear.

Something about a good kid, great work ethic. In other words, his parents raised him right.

I dreamed a dream

[Fantine is left alone, unemployed and destitute]

There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came

And still I dream he’ll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I’m living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.




“I Dreamed A Dream”
(feat. Idina Menzel) Glee

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high and life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted ..

But the tigers come at night (but the tigers come at night)
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart (as they tear your hope apart)
As they turn your dream to shame

And still I dream she’ll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I’m living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed